A Model

 Katrina stepped out of the shower with a towel wound tightly around her form. She took her time drying each and every droplet from her flawless skin. She surveyed herself in the mirror, and took in each detail with beautiful amber eyes. Her skin was the color of freshly made coffee, with just a dollop of milk mixed in. Her high cheekbones and wide-set, large eyes cast an aura of mystique around her willowy figure. With onyx hair hanging to just below her chin, she was beautiful.
                With cat-like grace, she turned from the mirror to sit on the edge of her bathtub, her long legs folding into her body with ease. She rested her cheek on her knees, her arms hugging her legs into a tight bundle.
                Katrina sat this way for a while, staring at the skylight that cut a hole in her vaulted ceiling, watching light flood the luxurious bathroom as the shadows crept further and further away from her curled body.
                Her phone buzzed on the vanity, and she was startled back to reality. She slowly uncurled and stood up, allowing the towel to drop as she walked over to check her phone. A text message from her agent. Of course. Today’s a big day! Don’t forget, you need to be at the plaza by eleven. Bring those gold shoes of yours, the strappy ones, not the heels. –Samantha.
                Katrina closed her eyes and delicately trailed her fingertips across her face. She snapped her phone shut and leaned against the vanity, staring at her feet.    
                Her hand shot out and closed around the bottle of vanilla scented lotion to her left, and she delicately unscrewed the top and dribbled the lotion into her palm. She turned her attention to her right leg first. Slowly she ran her lithe fingers down her perfectly sculpted thigh, rubbing in the balm as she went. “I hate you” she whispered. Her fingers trailed down to trace her calf. “I hate you, too.” 
                Her hand moved over to her left thigh, and repeated the process. “Why can’t you be thinner?” she said to her flawless skin as it absorbed the last of the lotion. She poured some more into her hands, and slowly worked her way up her stomach. “I hate you”. Katrina reached her left shoulder and paused, her hand cupped gently around her smooth skin. She closed her eyes and tilted her head until it rested lightly on her cupped hand. She envisioned herself shrinking smaller and smaller until she could run on nothing but air and the sunlight streaming in from the skylight in her vaulted bathroom ceiling.  She curled in on herself further, and continued her hand’s journey down her sapling arm.  “Be smaller” she whispered to her shoulder.
                Katrina finished applying the lotion and stepped into her carefully pressed clothes, tightening her artfully crafted belt to the last hole. As she walked out the door, she glanced once again at the full-length mirror glinting in the sunlight from the skylight in her vaulted bathroom ceiling.
                Without a word, she smashed it and stepped out the door.



-N
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Interesting.

This may offend you.

http://www.aolnews.com/science/article/study-gay-parents-more-likely-to-have-gay-kids/19668089?ncid=webmail

Personally, I find it interesting.

A lot of people violently oppose gay marriage, stating in their arguments that gay parents will turn out gay kids. Before now, this statement has been shot down almost as soon as the words exited their mouth. But with this study (and yes, it has been extensively researched, read the article), that may no longer be a lie.

Personally, I'm fine with the idea that gay parents can produce more gay kids. It makes sense if you think about it; the idea isn't condemned in their household, and they are inherently more open-minded. You would have NO trouble coming out to gay parents, whereas if you live in a household where you're not sure how your parents would take it, or if they would vehemently object, you may never come out.

I don't think that gay and lesbian couples produce more homosexual children, only that they allow their kids to be who they are without fear.

Leave your comments and opinions below, I'd love to discuss this more.

-N
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Poetry Post #3 Seeing is a Lost Art Form

We are all blind.

You can watch
the lovers at the park
on an unusually chill
winter's day
from noon until sunset,
and never see them at all.

I observe;

They walk side by side
his footprints unusually deep
in the ever-present snow,
hers barely there,
begging a breeze
blow me away

She turns,
and seems to search his eyes.

I think to myself
I have seen this.
She will  tell him
'I love you'

Her mouth opens,
the truth clings 
to the safety of her lips,
even as her tongue 
harshly throws them out into
the swirling abyss.

Her eyes are as cold as the snow in her hair
as she spins on her heel.

He grabs her retreating arm,
sweeps her back into his pleading stare
as words tumble 
meaninglessly 
never reaching her ears.
I love you
they say
I can change

But she is already gone.

Her arm, 
clad in a black wool,
jerks out of his pleading grip.

She runs.
Past the bench,
past the pond,
past hope,
past sight.

He merely stands,
another tree in the landscape
eaten from the inside out
by some awful blight
that has left merely a shell.

...

I watch this with a knowing eye
and a calm demeanor.
I know what he will do next;
I have been the boy
I have been the girl

He will walk home
find solace at the bottom of a box of cheap wine
and move on.

She will throw herself into work.
Sleep won't cross her mind for several days.
She will tell herself it was for the best

...
....
...

I am awakened from my delusion
as I see him calmly turn
and put a foot on the unstable ice
caking the small pond
directly alongside his love's sole set of footprints

I begin to say something
when there is a crack
as sure as a gunshot
and just as deadly

He falls

...

The next day in the paper
their obituaries are side by side.
Lovers reunited.
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Short Stuff

Validation- Why is that so important in out society?


School days- Why are they so early and so common?


Fruity Pebbles- Why are they not in my pantry right now?

-N
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I'm sorry

I apologize for my previous blog post. It wasn't my usual content. I just needed to blow off some steam. Sorry again. I'll go back to posting my usual stuff later.
-N
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Letters I Wish I Could Send

Letters I wish I could send

Dear X,
Fuck you. What happened? We were friends. But I was the only one putting anything into our friendship. You never cared that you were interrupting my family time, you brushed off my concerns like they were nothing, you used me like I was a puppy who would listen and listen and give you endless love, but you never fed me or gave me rest. I wasted several months putting your concerns far ahead of my own, and my life spiraled thanks to that. I haven't been the same since. Oh, and here's the kicker; when I needed you most, you acted like it was nothing, and returned to your car ads. I don't believe you when you say you actually worried, you want to know why? Because I don't think you cared from the start.
-Nobody


Dear D,
I don't know why I talked to you at the start. I didn't know you, I had only seen you perform. You ended up being rather nice at the beginning. I beat myself up over saying stupid things, but then you commented here and there and I thought all was well. I really admire your eloquence on Facebook, and wish I could hear some of the songs you write. Nobody else seems to understand that I don't like you in a crush sort of way, rather I think you're interesting and I'd like to be friends. "Here's a trailer for anyone who can't comprehend research". It still hurts. Well, I tried.
-Nobody

Dear M,
Wow. You don't seem to fathom the fact that anyone could actually dislike you. Well, newsflash Pompous, I do. I used to like you, you are a very talented boy indeed, but you never let up on the asshole meter. Oh, and then I found out you KNEW? Way to lead me on jerk. I'm SO glad you went to college far away from me. I just hope you don't keep popping up in real life like you do in my mind.
-Nobody

Dear *,
I worry about you. When you went a-woll, I freaked out. I couldn't deal with another friend leaving with no explanation. But you're back now, and I'm glad. I'm just scared about what happened in between. 
-Nobody

Dear L,
Please, please, please hold up for a minute. Take a second and look back to the fifth grade you that I met. Would he like what you were doing now? Would he wonder why you've gone through so many 'relationships' so fast? You're heartbroken, admit it. Everyone sees it but you. Please, when we try to talk to you about this, it isn't because we're trying to attack you. It's because we're worried about you. We've seen a huge change, and it HASN'T been for the better. We want our pillar back. We want the happy you back.
-Nobody

Dear ~,
He's not worth it. I don't know what you've been through in the past, you won't tell me, but I can tell it's bad. Now he came along and I'm sure he wasn't the greatest person seeing as how he made you so unhappy, so why do you still care what he thinks? You were almost ENGAGED to another guy in the time you've broken up with him (which was over two years ago, might I add), so why is he still important? Please try to forget about whatever he said. He's not worth it.
<3
-Nobody

Dear * and ~,
Cut back on the guys, you're just like L. I'm worried that you're burning through relationships at an unhealthy rate. I don't want to see you hurt.
-Nobody

Dear N,
I despise you. You're ugly, fat, inconsiderate, abrasive, unmotivated, and just downright mean. Why can't you keep a goal? It's not that hard, people do it all the time. You're weak, you hurt yourself and everyone around you. They don't want your problems, so stop whining to them about it, you need to help yourself. Your friends have their own problems. Quit expecting so much out of people. Quit expecting so much out of yourself.
-Nobody
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Terror

So about fifteen minutes ago I think I had a panic attack (I literally Googled "feeling of impending doom). Which was weird. Because all I was doing was taking a shower.

It was one of the scariest things I've ever experienced. There was a huge looming feeling of impending doom, nothing felt real, I was totally detached but swimming in fear, and I was pretty sure I was about to die. I never want to go through anything like that again.

This ever happen to anybody else?

-N
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