Poetry Post #3 Seeing is a Lost Art Form

We are all blind.

You can watch
the lovers at the park
on an unusually chill
winter's day
from noon until sunset,
and never see them at all.

I observe;

They walk side by side
his footprints unusually deep
in the ever-present snow,
hers barely there,
begging a breeze
blow me away

She turns,
and seems to search his eyes.

I think to myself
I have seen this.
She will  tell him
'I love you'

Her mouth opens,
the truth clings 
to the safety of her lips,
even as her tongue 
harshly throws them out into
the swirling abyss.

Her eyes are as cold as the snow in her hair
as she spins on her heel.

He grabs her retreating arm,
sweeps her back into his pleading stare
as words tumble 
meaninglessly 
never reaching her ears.
I love you
they say
I can change

But she is already gone.

Her arm, 
clad in a black wool,
jerks out of his pleading grip.

She runs.
Past the bench,
past the pond,
past hope,
past sight.

He merely stands,
another tree in the landscape
eaten from the inside out
by some awful blight
that has left merely a shell.

...

I watch this with a knowing eye
and a calm demeanor.
I know what he will do next;
I have been the boy
I have been the girl

He will walk home
find solace at the bottom of a box of cheap wine
and move on.

She will throw herself into work.
Sleep won't cross her mind for several days.
She will tell herself it was for the best

...
....
...

I am awakened from my delusion
as I see him calmly turn
and put a foot on the unstable ice
caking the small pond
directly alongside his love's sole set of footprints

I begin to say something
when there is a crack
as sure as a gunshot
and just as deadly

He falls

...

The next day in the paper
their obituaries are side by side.
Lovers reunited.
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Short Stuff

Validation- Why is that so important in out society?


School days- Why are they so early and so common?


Fruity Pebbles- Why are they not in my pantry right now?

-N
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I'm sorry

I apologize for my previous blog post. It wasn't my usual content. I just needed to blow off some steam. Sorry again. I'll go back to posting my usual stuff later.
-N
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Letters I Wish I Could Send

Letters I wish I could send

Dear X,
Fuck you. What happened? We were friends. But I was the only one putting anything into our friendship. You never cared that you were interrupting my family time, you brushed off my concerns like they were nothing, you used me like I was a puppy who would listen and listen and give you endless love, but you never fed me or gave me rest. I wasted several months putting your concerns far ahead of my own, and my life spiraled thanks to that. I haven't been the same since. Oh, and here's the kicker; when I needed you most, you acted like it was nothing, and returned to your car ads. I don't believe you when you say you actually worried, you want to know why? Because I don't think you cared from the start.
-Nobody


Dear D,
I don't know why I talked to you at the start. I didn't know you, I had only seen you perform. You ended up being rather nice at the beginning. I beat myself up over saying stupid things, but then you commented here and there and I thought all was well. I really admire your eloquence on Facebook, and wish I could hear some of the songs you write. Nobody else seems to understand that I don't like you in a crush sort of way, rather I think you're interesting and I'd like to be friends. "Here's a trailer for anyone who can't comprehend research". It still hurts. Well, I tried.
-Nobody

Dear M,
Wow. You don't seem to fathom the fact that anyone could actually dislike you. Well, newsflash Pompous, I do. I used to like you, you are a very talented boy indeed, but you never let up on the asshole meter. Oh, and then I found out you KNEW? Way to lead me on jerk. I'm SO glad you went to college far away from me. I just hope you don't keep popping up in real life like you do in my mind.
-Nobody

Dear *,
I worry about you. When you went a-woll, I freaked out. I couldn't deal with another friend leaving with no explanation. But you're back now, and I'm glad. I'm just scared about what happened in between. 
-Nobody

Dear L,
Please, please, please hold up for a minute. Take a second and look back to the fifth grade you that I met. Would he like what you were doing now? Would he wonder why you've gone through so many 'relationships' so fast? You're heartbroken, admit it. Everyone sees it but you. Please, when we try to talk to you about this, it isn't because we're trying to attack you. It's because we're worried about you. We've seen a huge change, and it HASN'T been for the better. We want our pillar back. We want the happy you back.
-Nobody

Dear ~,
He's not worth it. I don't know what you've been through in the past, you won't tell me, but I can tell it's bad. Now he came along and I'm sure he wasn't the greatest person seeing as how he made you so unhappy, so why do you still care what he thinks? You were almost ENGAGED to another guy in the time you've broken up with him (which was over two years ago, might I add), so why is he still important? Please try to forget about whatever he said. He's not worth it.
<3
-Nobody

Dear * and ~,
Cut back on the guys, you're just like L. I'm worried that you're burning through relationships at an unhealthy rate. I don't want to see you hurt.
-Nobody

Dear N,
I despise you. You're ugly, fat, inconsiderate, abrasive, unmotivated, and just downright mean. Why can't you keep a goal? It's not that hard, people do it all the time. You're weak, you hurt yourself and everyone around you. They don't want your problems, so stop whining to them about it, you need to help yourself. Your friends have their own problems. Quit expecting so much out of people. Quit expecting so much out of yourself.
-Nobody
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Terror

So about fifteen minutes ago I think I had a panic attack (I literally Googled "feeling of impending doom). Which was weird. Because all I was doing was taking a shower.

It was one of the scariest things I've ever experienced. There was a huge looming feeling of impending doom, nothing felt real, I was totally detached but swimming in fear, and I was pretty sure I was about to die. I never want to go through anything like that again.

This ever happen to anybody else?

-N
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Censorship

Who has the right to decide what you can and cannot be exposed to?

Many of you may have heard of Ellen Hopkins, the author of Tricks, Impulse, Crank, Burned, Identical, and others. Personally, I am a big fan of her books because they deal with real-life issues such as self-harm, teenage relationships, prostitution, suicide, drugs, etc.

Ellen has had her invitation to attend the Humble Teen Lit Festival (Humble is a suburb of Houston, TX) rescinded.

Why? What did she do to offend? She had previously been a speaker at two schools in that area, had she conducted herself in a way where she was deemed unfit to speak with the children again?

Her invitation was rescinded because of one librarian and a couple of parents. Out of hundreds of librarians and thousands of parents, a couple of narrow-minded people get to decide that a New York Times bestselling author can't come to their festival because they don't want their kids, their kids, reading her books?

These few people went to the superintendent and ask that Ellen be uninvited, and he agreed, even though he had never read her books.

What about the other kids whose parents said it was okay? What about those other kids who had been dying to meet their favorite author? What about those kids who's lives were changed thanks to one of her books, and wanted to thank her?

Censorship is a huge problem! We are lucky to live somewhere we can read anything we want, and when that starts to be taken away, we need to get angry.

If you want to e-mail the boneheaded super, his e-mail address is Guy.Sconzo@humble.k12.tx.us, though please refrain from cursing.


Keep your restrictions to yourself. 
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.........

Today was the final day of summer vacation.

I'm not quite sure how to feel about this.

I've been so busy this summer, it doesn't feel like I had a vacation.

I need some Me-Time.

And a good book.

And a hammock.

I really want a hammock.

-N
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